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Monday, 8 May 2017

little rants

Omg it has been so long yet again!!!! Just a little update about my life rn and things that I've never mentioned here about my academic results last year and entering the next phase of my life.

The reason to the lack of updates last year was because I had my national exams. Studied my ass off for it and finally I'm out of that hell school. This year I'll be going through a Polytechnic Foundation [let's call that pfp in short yeah] year in my new school. [woohoo bye Anderson]

PFP was something that I wanted to pursue on after my secondary school life because it gives me a head start to a poly life and experience new things, making new friends and etc. I've been to my new school and it's HUGE. And after going there for about like 3-4 times alr, it feels right to me like there's this odd feeling but it's a good feeling HAHAHA. My new class seems pretty dorky in a good way too. I would hate to have a quiet class if not where got fun right [sorry the singlish just had to kick in] They all seem pretty nice and not forgetting the fact that there's only 5 girls in the class and the rest are boys OMG. Would be lying if I say I wasn't facing any problems but won't you be more shocked to hear that I'm encountering problems just into Week 3?? But yes I am indeed having a problem here.

As of now, I'm praying none in my class would read this but if they do then I'm sorry I haven't been opening up but well, we haven't seen each others' true colors yet so. So woohoo Orientation was all great and yes we exchanged contacts and social media. Just into Week 1, I was going along well with this classmate of mine, but one day, that person's mood changed suddenly and well I have eyes, I'm human and I react to changes around me so I tried asking what was wrong and maybe you know wanted to help that person feel somewhat better but no sadly. That person rejected my offer fine then. Otw home at the bus stop, bumped into that person again and well no harm giving it a second try at trying to make someone feel better aye. So I did and I assumed that the person didn't wanted to talk about it so I left it as that. And guess what things became so awkward after that and all because why? Rycelyn was too caring and wanted nothing but that person to feel better. Omg but guess what, that person distanced himself/herself (idw say who that is) from me and I thought shit maybe I did something bad to him/her or anything sort of. BUT NO I WAS TOO CLINGY IN HIS/HER PERSPECTIVE.

Tbh, I was really mad upon hearing that the person said I was clingy like hello? I'm not the one unhappy that day and all I tried to do was to find out what happened without even forcing you or anything but no you chose to call that act clingy. LIKE WOW that fking logic. It's still pissing me off rn because it's really annoying that you [the you meaning me] actually wanted to care for someone but that person just had to say something not that nice about that gesture. Like bitch I owe you nothing and first of all, you shouldn't even be treating someone like that. Sorry that 'clingy' act had to make you unfollow me almost everywhere. I'm sorry I couldn't control my human reaction of something called 'being concern'. Didn't know I had to face these kind of situations cause when you're so used to helping people but they just can't see it or appreciate it, it's just downright painful. We all have feelings too you know and sorry you couldn't relate or maybe attempt to be in my shoes and knew how I felt. Like constantly ignoring me wasn't enough and nope, you had to make things a little worse than it already is.

I'm so sorry for the rant but I just wanna get the message across like when people ask you if you're okay, they are actually trying to care for you [i should remind myself that cause i've been forgetting it lately] and it isn't pleasant if you just shove them away or just say that their action is clingy or etc. At least be a little humane and know that everyone has feelings too not just you or me and everyone has their own problems too and it's okay if you don't wanna say it. You just have to say it in a nice way that you're uncomfortable in saying it. Ugh this post is so wordy and idw rant anymore. Good thing I've mastered the art of ignoring you as of now. I tried you know to be friendly and nice but no you chose to ruin that and the friendship. You can act like I don't exist in class because that's what I'm gonna do too.

Okay folks, sorry for this shitty ass post man but really going a lot lately and it's been so tiring and rough. So many projects and assignments. I'll update real soon again hopefully. It was good typing out what's inside me for almost a week.

Stay awesome and be happy always y'all!

Monday, 27 February 2017

Tiny little thoughts

I came across many online articles about Kim Jong Nam's death the other day and on Friday when I finally had the time, I went to read more about what caused his death. And if you're wondering if I'm gonna talk about him, I'm not going to but I'm gonna share my thoughts on what I read after that article.

Many a times I bet not just me, everyone else living in a country where they don't face any threats that could end their lives, we all don't realize how fortunate we all are. I know this may seem so nonsensical to some people because they'd probably say that me saying this irrelevant stuff can't change lives of those who are suffering in places like Iraq or Syria. But what I wanna say is that when I saw how Iraq was like, my heart really broke for them and if I ever have the chance, I would really wanna help them. Despite so much destructions, the people are coming back and wanting to stay there. It's so sad that they have to rely on aid trucks to get through a day and without the UN's help, I don't even think they could get through a day. Seeing how residents there are desperate, I think of the luxury I receive and the way I live every day. 

Glad that the Iraqi forces managed to reclaim back Mosul Airport. And reading how the airport got destructed really is quite depressing as well. We all are really fortunate seeing how we can live our stress-free lives where others have to think where they can find food or even drinking water. The people there didn't asked for this yet they have to go through it. 

They might not be the only people such tragedies. I'm sure there are many more countries suffering from different stuff like famine for example. That's where people will start saying we shouldn't be wasting food and since I bet no one wanna listen to that all over again, I'm not going to say it. WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO DO YEAH (; 

So this is just my little thought about a tiny bit of world affairs and I truly do hope their living conditions would improve. And about the first part of the post about the death of Kim Jong Nam, I did some research myself too. And I won't be sharing what I think because in case it causes some misunderstanding. 
Thank you for reading y'all and I'll try my very best to update as often! 
Be happy always! 

Tuesday, 14 February 2017


holding everything in was never easy and it's even harder to give myself a choice sometimes. trying to sound that you're fine probably isn't easy too but what choices do you have when you don't want things to get complicated? and what for put your share of problems on other's shoulders? not really that necessary huh?

gotta admit it isn't easy pretending to be okay when you're not because it leads to so many thoughts that would cloud your head and you start to overthink. it's so suffocating at times when you just don't wanna say what's wrong and choose to bottle things up instead and suffer by yourself. it's really depressing to go through that but what can one expect when some people just don't stand in our shoes?

by not expecting a lot, my expectations weren't so high either and i'll just pretend everything is just normal and not the expected. it gets painful and disappointing sometimes when you are forgotten in the event of something important. that is really like a stab in the heart.

just penning down some late night thoughts and sorry for the sudden update when MIA for so long.
but still Happy Valentine's Day everyone. spend it well.

Sunday, 24 July 2016

A Sunday Out

Hey all! Bet you're surprised that I'm actually here updating!!! Just got home this afternoon from Gardens by The Bay and Lau Pa Sat! Side note, it's a very picture heavy post!!!!
It's been really long since I last left the house to somewhere nice. Except for school which I have to go every day, I haven't really been out cause there's tons of homework to do and while I'm doing up this post, there's still homework calling out to me:<

But anyways, I kinda contemplated whether or not to go out today because of the work I have to do but I went ahead as my Prelims is happening this Thursday and I really wanna just relax for a day. So yeah.
Woke up at around 7.30am as the bus was gonna leave at 9.00am and I gotta get ready hehe. I'm not gonna go in detail about how I get ready but I finally got to use my Revlon Ultra HD Matte Lipcolor in shade Addiction. I have been waiting for the right time to use it and I finally had the chance to!! The shade was actually not something that I would be comfortable to wear out but I went ahead with it cause if you never try, you'll never know. And it turns out to be so pretty and I was so amazed by it!! And I wore a simple blue crop top from F21 and my dark denim pants from H&M. And featuring my really cute Batman socks HAHAHAH.

So actually my mum and I followed our GRC on this trip and the tickets were priced at $13 each for both Cloud Forest and Flower Dome. The bus ride to Gardens by The Bay consisted of me listening to music and playing around with the Snapchat filters.

Pretty soon, we've reached Gardens by The Bay! After they've given us the tickets, it was all free and easy and we gotta meet back at the meeting place at 12.30pm. Initially, my mum and I wanted to go to Flower Dome first but the crowd was insane so we decided to go to Cloud Forest first. As expected, Cloud Forest didn't have much of a crowd and it was easier to take pictures there hehehehe.
Upon going to Cloud Forest a few times, I've never actually took a photo by the really huge and cold fountain and I finally got to yay. I was feeling extra touristy today! 

To be very honest, Cloud Forest to me doesn't really have much as compared to Flower Dome>< But inside, it is extra cooling and super nice to walk around in that temperature. So this time, we took the lift to the 6th floor and we explored from there. There were a lot of nice flowers there as we're walking and the view of Marina Bay and the architecture of the whole dome is absolutely pretty! 
I'll just let the pictures speak for itself hehe.

See I wasn't lying when I said the view was great! The clouds were so fluffy HAHAHA. As we continued walking, we got to the place where we were just beside the fountain and I also really wanted to take photo since forever and thanks to the not much crowd, I was able to do it today!! 

I shut my eyes because the sunlight already made my eyes looked small xD


As we were exploring, I was casually talking to my mum about life and also some interesting and happy events of my life hehehe. As we were walking, we passed my fav spot of Cloud Forest where you can see pretty small flowers! And a spot that's very nice for photos! 

Very quickly which I meant around 20 min, we exited Cloud Forest and went to Flower Dome! This season is the The Orchid Extravaganza! There were so many types of orchids everywhere in almost every colour. Upon entering, we were greeted by the yellows and reds orchids. It was so pretty!!

Frankly, sometimes I get really pissed off with crowds and I almost always curse them in my head because I just don't get how can one be stuck at a particular place for so longg. But to my surprise, my mood today was really great and I didn't even get pissed HAHAAHAH. Probably made the whole trip a lot easier to not deal with my crankiness. But at one particular spot was super crowded because there was this very pretty wall of orchids. I did caught a picture of it but it wasn't at the best angle. 

As I've said before, this season is the The Orchid Extravaganza, so I took a few pictures which I thought were quite nice. I didn't take as much photos because in general I appreciated the pretty flowers with my eyes and also my mum did take a lot of photos. LET ME APOLOGIZE in advance because I really like purple so most of what I took were purple orchids :x

Not a lot of photos hehehe so I'm strongly encouraging you guys to visit Gardens by The Bay to see these beautiful orchids!! If I'm not wrong it should be lasting till 31 July! 
Apart from orchids, they also have other flowers which I'm unsure of their names except for Daisies :D Daisies are like my absolute favourite flowers and those that look like daisies too! I'm sorry cause I'm super terrible at the names of the flowers>< GAHHHH THE DAISIES WERE SO NICE OMGG

After finishing seeing almost the flowers, we snapped a picture together with the orchids and thank you to the lovely lady who was so friendly and also for taking such a nice picture hehee!! 

After that, it started to rain a little and it kinda stopped as we were on the way to Lau Pa Sat. Okay I'm not very sure if you guys had heard of that place before but it was apparently an old hawker centre in Singapore and they renovated it and it looks so modern right now!!

There are so many food choices there for you people to choose from and it ranges from all sorts of cuisine!! As my mum and I were exploring the place, the first thing that caught my eyes were the 2 korean words, BINGSU [im lazy to find the korean words so yeah ;x] and I immediately walked over and checked out what flavours they had. So my mum and I decided that after our proper food, we could have bingsu yay and I was so happy bout it!! 
I had Miso Ramen which sadly didn't taste so good and there was way too much oil to my displeasure haiz :( But after we finished eating, we walked over to the Bingsu area and ordered the Mango flavoured one. My mum and I have never tried mango flavoured ones before so we've decided to try it. As the person was preparing it, he looked really concentrated HAHAHA and the end result was super pretty!! 

The mangoes were super duper fresh and they tasted so good!!! So was the bingsu too!! I absolutely love bingsu which their ice are induced with milk!!! Taste super milky and I love it so much!! That costed us $7.90 and it was so worth it!! Like I probably wouldn't mind paying more for it because it really taste super nice and gosh now I wanna have another bowl of it!!!!! That place is called 'Gangnam Bingsu'. 

So if you happen to be Lau Pa Sat, you should totally check this Bingsu place out!! I couldn't believe that even a hawker could have a Bingsu stall!!!!!! Absolutely amazing goshhh! It is totally affordable and is definitely worth your money!

Lau Pa Sat is located at 18 Raffles Quay, 048582. It is open 24 hours!! And the nearest MRT station is Raffles Place MRT. You gotta Google the directions hehehe cause I'm not that sure to tell you><
Here's some images from Google!!

I think everyone should at least check out this place once!! 

So that's about it for this post! Hope you guys liked it and also that's what a Sunday out would be like for me hehehehe(: To all that'll have their examinations soon, all the very best and I hope you'll do well! Today was splendid for me hehehe! In the meantime, stay awesome and be happy always! 

Hugs & Kisses !

Sunday, 3 July 2016

Update x Books III

Hello all! So firstly, I sincerely apologise for not updating in a super long time. Been going through exams after exams, my O Level Chinese Oral and Written Papers Exam just ended not too long ago and the English one is coming up and so is my Chinese Listening Comprehension.. If I hadn't mention before, this year is actually my crucial year as I'll be taking my national exams.. To be very honest, I really don't know if there's anyone who actually constantly reads my blog.. So I kinda lost the motivation for updating.. I'm really really sorry for neglecting this space.. But lately, I've been revising and being at least kinda consistent with my studies and also other commitments. CCA had also stand down for me but as National Day is coming up in no time, I'll be going back pretty often to help out as much as I can..

Also, Youth Day is coming so Happy Youth Day in advance to all youths hahaha. Stay forever young and happy (; And to all my Muslim friends, Selamat Hari Raya in advance too!!!! Saying it now cause I know for sure that I won't be free to update anytime soon oooops>< Really hope you guys would have a fruitful Raya!! Side note hehe, I've actually been to the Geylang Serai Ramadan Bazaar!! I was absolutely shocked at the amount of food that was selling there and it's reasonably priced and it's also really yummy!!!! omg you guys should totally go before it closes!!! MUST TRY: The Watermelon Volcano [like OMG it's like super photo worthy and super yummy too!! If you happen to be perspiring like crazy and also super thirsty, you should totally get the OVERDOSE drink!!! Comes in 3 flavours for you to choose from: Chocolate, Green Tea and Hazelnut. hehehe there are tons of other cool food there so go try it out!!!!!

Yeah and the view at night is absolutely stunning too!!! So do go there to grab some yummy stuffs!!! And also go around 4-5+ to avoid crowds!!

Despite all that, I've also been reading kinda a lot lately yayyyyy!! Bet all of you guys thought that I must've stopped reading. I think I mentioned in one of last few posts that I'd actually review the Percy Jackson's series and guess what, I've actually finished 10 books of those series!! And it consists of Percy Jackson & The Olympians and Heroes of Olympus! Both the series were extremely astounding!!! At first I was really reluctant to read the second series but after much consideration I still chose to read it cause I realised I was really into Greek and Roman mythology. The first series don't really consist much about the Romans but in the second series there were a mixture of both Greek and Roman.

Upon hearing Percy Jackson, I'm sure a lot if you guys will think about Logan Lerman first. HAHA don't worry me too actually so everytime when I'm inside the demigod world, I picture all the adventures of Percy as Logan. But just to clarify, the book is actually really different from the movie and as you can see, they aren't actually continuing the series anymore sadly:( BUT, the books are actually way way WAYYYYY more interesting than the movie!!! The adventures are more detailed and you should definitely let your imaginations do the work!!
For introduction sake, Percy is a son of Poseidon also known as God of the Sea. And there's Annabeth daughter of Athena known as Goddess of Wisdom. Those 2 are the main characters of the book! Yeap and spoiler, THEY BECAME A COUPLE. As of the first series, Percy Jackson & The Olympians, the first book was The Lightning Thief and I'm very sure many of you had watched the moviee. So the drill for the adventures are actually the demigods going for quests. And those quests aren't meant to be easy and there's bound to be many ups and downs and lots of monsters to kill and also facing some of the gods. I'm actually not going to summarize the 5 books of the series hehehe but I'm going to tell you that my favourite among the 5 books is The Last Olympian and yes that'sthe last book of the series. It's actually pretty hard to choose a favourite cause all of them are really really nice and thrilling and it didn't actually took me very long to finish those 5 books cause it seriously that INTERESTING to keep going on!! If you're like me who actually prefer fantasy stuff, I totally recommend you to read this series because it's absolutely cool and amazing!!!! And don't be surprised if you wanna search up about the greek and roman history HAHAHA cause that's what happened to me.

As for Heroes of Olympus, they included the Romans which meant there wasn't only the Greek demigods. As for the Greeks, their camp is called Camp Half-Blood while the Roman side is called Camp Jupiter. The characters you'll get to know in this series are Percy, Annabeth, Jason, Leo, Piper, Frank, Hazel, Nico, Reyna. So the first book which is called The Lost Hero. The book is mainly about Jason. So the problem in this book is that the Earth Mother is awakening and they have to stop that from happening and by doing so, they have to reunited both the camps. So Juno also known Hera, cleared Jason's memory as well as Percy's and put them in Camp Half-Blood and Camp Jupiter respectively. And after that they went for quests after quests. Side track, Jason Grace son of Jupiter also known as Zeus. Leo Valdez son of Hephaestus also known as Vulcan. Piper McLean daughter of Aphrodite also known as Venus. Frank Zhang son of Mars also known as Ares [he is able to change form into animals!!!!]  Hazel Levesque and Nico Di Angelo daughter and son of Hades also known as Pluto. Reyna, Praetor of the Roman camp, daughter of Bellona. Yeap I know it seems freaking dumb saying this SO PLS GO READ IT!!! I swear it's really goood!!! My favourite book in this series got to be House of Hades! It's actually really cool as Percy and Annabeth had fallen into the pit of Tartarus and the Argo II had to get to the mortal side to help Percy and Annabeth to open the Doors of Death. Also in this context, the Earth Mother also known as Gaia isn't actually the nicest goddess. And also through this series, I absolutely fell in love with Nico Di Angelo!!!! Super charming and very braveeee!!! And I freaking love his Underworld Powers! hehehe I think if I were to summarise it, I would spoil the interesting things so sadly I can't:( yeap so tots recommending you guys to read this series!!!!! Good chance to improve your English yeah? (:

So yeap!! I hope you guys will read it or even better already read it! I think it's really nice to just share what you love around like I mean not physical things like boyfriend for example LOL. That can't be shared HAHA as if it isn't obvious enoughhhh.. Well you get the idea hehehe!! So yeah, being in the world of fantasies and imaginations are truly the best things to distress yourself and just you know escape reality for a little while.. To those that ain't interested in fantasy books, go read some Self-Help :D hehehe hope you'll find the love and Greek Mythology like I do and yeap I truly hope to visit Athens one day in Greece and the Colosseum in Rome! And to those who dislike reading, maybe try listening to audible books!! Saves you the trouble of using your eyes (:

I know it's been like 5 months and I truly am sorry but so many things are going on and I'm also anticipating more in the upcoming months.. Lots of mugging to be done and more books to read as well.. So once again, Happy Youth Day to all youths out there (: and also Selamat Heri Raya!! Have a great festive holiday ahead! I know it's pretty lengthy and it's also okay if you actually don't read it up till here but if you do, I really appreciate it!! *I'm actually reading the new series called Trials of Apollo so there will surely be a review after the series ends!!!* In the meantime, stay awesome and be happy always!

Hugs & Kisses! 

Sunday, 21 February 2016

CNY 2016

Hello all! Sighpie me:( Its been 2 months plus since I last updated. I'm so sorry oh my.. I honestly wasn't expecting myself to be this busy all this while. But since it's somewhat my graduation year, I should've already expect myself to be kept hectic all this time.. But nonetheless, I'm here now to let you all know that I'm not dead yet HAHAHA. (okay that was lame) But I kinda miss this and I realized it's kind of neglected and I feel kinda guilty..

But on quite a joyous note, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone celebrating/celebrated! Technically the last day for cny! For me, I kinda really enjoyed this year's cny cause there were so much pretty fireworks back at ah ma house and there were dogs to play with (though i got bitten by one during dec hols:( ) but the dog was super cute, small and hyper so it was alright! 
It was a 3 Days, 2 Nights celebration for me hehe! Though some of my friends kinda missed one week of school due to cny LMAO.

That was the day which I woke up super early to prepare myself and to catch the 10am train to JB Sentral. Oh my, I was truly tired man. But it was a fun ride though it was 4min HAHAHA. (okay this isn't funny oops) 
But after reaching JB Sentral, we shopped awhile and ate breakfast and someone drove us back to ah ma house yay. And I was super excited when I reached omg cause it has been too long since I last went there!! But I spent most of my time reading Heroes of Olympus - Son of Neptune!! (yes a review soon on Percy Jackson series!!) And soon dinner came and we had LOUHEI! Surely can't miss out on that on a cny eve's reunion dinner!! And we ate and waited for 00:00 for the pretty fireworks!! And after that, GODONIGHT WORLD. 

Day 1 of CNY 
I wonder if anyone felt the hype of cny lmao. But I kind of didn't until I got dressed up and got ready for visiting>< But on that we only went to 1 house though hahah staying at ah ma house was still the best yay :p But yeap, got so happy that I finally wore the blue skorts that I bought for cny!! It was super nice!! 

yeap hehehe that was my ootd for that day yayz. After all those dressing up, we were ready for the visiting yay! Let's just skip to the food omg! Because IT WAS SO GOOD! My relative made the abalone dish which I so freaking love again! OMG IT WAS JUST SUPER GOOD. And can you believe it, I only eat it once a year. POOR ME. 
But to compensate for the sadness, here's a super nice photo taken!! 

Yeap and after dinner we went back to serenity aka ah ma house and there was more fireworks again!!!! AND IT WAS SO MUCH NICER THAN CNY EVE's!! 
and goodnight to the world again(: 

Day 2 of CNY
It was the day that we went back to SG:( Though I miss home, but I knew better that I would surely miss ah ma house even more:/ 
Back to SG meant more like "VISITING AND ANG PAO TIME"!
But it was fun and nice cause aunt cooked super yummy food for dinner that day and it was my fav yay!! hehehe and wow I truly missed the food that she cooked man:( 
After that, we went to our 2nd Aunt's house and to our surprise, she was alone at home xD All her family members went out for visiting and she was alone hehehe I bet she felt happy to see us heheheh!
Talked to her for awhile and she had super nice flowers omg!! 
hehehe after that we went home and I had to sleep early cause there was school the next day. (how freaking boring could it even be fml) 

Yeah and apparently Day 3 of cny was spent in school! Seemed so sad omg ugh but actually it was so. But oh well, it was pretty fun-filled for me though it might not sound quite fun here as it isn't that detailed but it was fun still hehehe! 

It's quite a short and brief post about my CNY but still, I finally updated after so long so yay! Yeap thank you so much for reading! And if I have the time, I'll review the Percy Jackson series that I finished last holidays! In the meantime, stay awesome and be happy always! 

Hugs & Kisses ! 

Friday, 1 January 2016

My 2015 !

Hello internet people!!! Finally it's the last day of the year and its finally time to sum this year up! AND AND I ALMOST FORGET HOW COULD I!! HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!! <3
This year had been such a roller coaster for me I guess but it definitely was way better than 2014! I know this year I didn't really post as much as I did back in 2014 and that's probably one of my regrets this year. Initially, I never intended to take this seriously but as time past, I found this as my platform to write, express what's in my heart and to share my happiness with not just myself but everyone. And even though there was a time that I went MIA for about a month, I felt super bad. I did procrastinate too much I gotta admit. And I'm really sorry for that..

Okay now!!! It wouldn't be like last year's post as I wanna thank people who made a difference in my life this year! (:
Firstly, my clique!!!!
We don't have a proper clique name but that's not important because the presence of the 7 of you is already enough.. Throughout the holidays, I kinda miss recess, PE lessons, lunch and lepak moments with you guys. We had honestly went through quite a lot this year and I'm so glad that we went through it together. Thanks to the 7 of you, you gals really added color to my life <3
Ashlyn: Thank you so much for being such an easy friend that I can approach to to say the most stupidest things and tolerating my nonsense since sec 1 omg and you have to tahan it for 1 more year hehehehe I hope you dont mind :D I love you Ashlyn!! <3
Hannah: WOAH babe!!!! I havent seen you in awhile!! Thank you for always coming to me when you have problems hehehe (((: Must always know that you can come to me when you have problems kaysss! I know this year had been not so good for you cause of so many shits but its okay!!! We're here! heheh I love you Hannah !!! <3
Jiayi: YOU YOU YOU! This year had been so so great with you man<3 Not a single part of 2015 that I spent with you was unhappy. I love to be around you really ! You're just so so nice and your presence itself is enough. Thank you for the very wonderful year Jiayi! I love you <33
Jovy: MY ASSEMBLY BUDDY! I miss you so freaking much and I have so much to tell you when school reopen!! thankyou for taking my bullshits this year man, I couldn't be more grateful for you! I love you Jovy!!!! <3
Natasha: Hey babe! <3 I am honestly very thankful for you. Thankful that you came to this school and being in the same clique is definitely a joy for me! Thankyou for all the smiles you have brought to me! And I'm sorry for what happened to you this year and I hope that 2016 will be better for you! Thankyou for being my books buddy!!1 Stay pretty babe! I love you Natasha! <3
Joys: Hey Mei! We did so much in 2014 but it seems like we did more this year too! Thankyou for always being the one who hangs out with me and taking most of shits, came and visit me when my leg got bitten and brought so much food for me. You're the one I'm most most thankful for. I know I dont show it much but I feel so blessed to have as my really good sis! In school, you probably knows me best and almost inside out maybe hahahaa! I'm so thrilled to spend 2016 with you! And cheers to more adventures with you! I love you Joys!! <3


Secondly, I wanna thank my best guy friend AKA my bro!!!! MYO KHANT. He prolly took alot of shits actually. We quarreled so much this year and its so unbelievable man. But still thankyou for always helping me, listening to me when I rant and also gaming with me and carrying me to Silver 3 YAY (: heheheh !
hopefully 2016 would be a better year for us and carry me more pl0x! Love you (AS A FRIEND AND SIS KAYS) 

Thirdly, I wanna thank Columbus! You guys seriously became like my family!! You guys are like an important part of me now and throughout the 3 outings, I felt so much closer to you guys! And every outing means so much to me! Thanks for all the wonderful memories in OBS and the outings! You guys are definitely the best! I love y'all so so much!!

Lastly, my family and relatives! This year had been so fun with you guys!! Especially this year's Christmas Party!! Thanks for all the preparation! The food was definitely really yummy and I love it!! Every moment spent with you guys is definitely worthwhile and I cant deny that I actually love it a lot! And I cant wait to spend more gatherings with you guys!! Thank you for all the support you guys have given me! I love you guys to the moon and back! <3

That's actually all about it! There wont be a collage this year cause I've already dedicated it! But still I hope you all would have a wonderful New Year! Cheers to this last post of 2015! I'm super thankful to those who read my online 'diary'! <3 I love you guys!!! I hope to update more in 2016 during my free time! Oh and remember to read the post below this if you wanna know about my OBS experience! Finally for the last time in 2015! 
In the meantime, stay awesome and be happy always! 

Hugs & Kisses! 

Thursday, 31 December 2015

OBS Leadership Camp experience

As the title says, I'll be sharing with you guys about my experience at OBS which is also known as 'Outward Bound Singapore'. The duration of my camp was 5 days 4 nights and our location was in Pulau Ubin and Camp 2 of OBS. Just FYI, I went on the 23/11-27/11 :D

Before the camp:
I was honestly super not prepared for this camp at first and I actually kind of regretted signing up for it even before I went for it because of all the post other people had posted and it was all bad and I was just super duper scared that I would not enjoy my time there but everything changed when I met those 15 people that I now cherish so damn much.
Those 15 are Azah, Felicia, Janice, JiaYing, Joel, Josaiah, Karen, Louisa, Nat, Riz, Shermaine, Wei Zhe, Wen Jie, Ying Xin, Zul. 

Anderson Sec was like literally the first to arrive at the gathering place which is Punggol Jetty and we waited for like all the other schools and we had to spilt up with our own schoolmates and join our new watch (aka group). And it was time to bid the Anderson family goodbye.

At first it was just super awkward and I was just conversing with my school friends from the same watch. Slowly as it progressed, we were introduced to our instructor and our watch name. Khai was my instructor and Columbus is my watch's name.
It was kinda awkward at first when we were introduced to each other but we played some ice breakers to be more comfortable with each other and slowly we became closer. And soon, it was time to board the boat to our campsite. Throughout the ride, it was still kinda awkward because we still didn't each other quite yet but it was nice to have small talks with them.

After we've reached the campsite, we settled in, found our store and we continued playing more games. There was this one game that made my watch bond and trust each other. We had to cross the river with bricks and planks and we had to communicate and that was so important. In the end, we were the first watch to cross the river and we were overjoyed though there were no price but we were just so happy that we managed to complete it with the help of everyone including people from other watches :) Slowly, lunch came and we had our rations of food also known as 'Happy Food'. Probably my fav bag of things :D

Moving on to dinner, we had to do outdoor cooking. Outdoor cooking wasn't anything foreign to me cause I do it in CCA too but in OBS, they use solid fuels which was a faster way to start fire rather than punks, twigs and kindlings. Dinner that night was alright other than the rain that came down and we had to move indoors to cook. After dinner, we had so much time to shower that we ended up having time to chitchat and lepak at OUR bench. Yes we literally claimed that bench as ours cause we really spent quite some time there with each other and there was where we share our talks, laughters and where memories were created. DAYUM not that deep but there luh. Soon night came and at first, the plan was me sleeping with my 3 other Anderson friends but instead, I chose not to and insisted in sleeping with my new found friends and istg, I didn't and never would regret that decision. They were honestly the best tent mates I could ever ask for. As for the night, I couldn't sleep at all and I was just staring at the trees the entire night and I wondered how the rest could sleep so soundlessly. Kissing the night goodbye and there I was awaiting the next morning.

It was the day of the Sea expedition.
We woke up, brushed our teeths, had our breakfast and it was time for the briefing for the packing for the expedition.After that and all the packing, we were ready to test our PFDs but it started to rain so we had our lunch in the shelter. After lunch, it was still raining so we all decided to sleep. I didnt really sleep though I couldn't sleep the last night.. but at least i had company (: My best friend who's in the other watch kept me company! we talked and joked about so much stuff till the rain stopped and we could test out our PFDs and get rowing!! 
At around 3.30-4, we were ready to set off! But sadly, we couldnt make it to the destination that we wanted so we had to go to this site that have tons of sandfly;(
After reaching the campsite, we had to unload the stuffs from the safety boat and arrange it neatly according to our watches. While packing some stuff, my hands started feeling really itchy and I pulled up my sleeves to see myself having rashes. It wasnt very bad until the next day but it was pinkish. After unpacking, we had to pitch our tents and prepare dinner. Soon, dinner was ready and we had all changed out of our wet clothes:/
After dinner, it was debrief and also briefing about the next day. Our destination for the day was Punggol Jetty. Soon, it was bedtime and this time finally, I've gotten some sleep......

beep beep beep! It was 5.55am but before that my tent was doing patrol duty and we were doing the last shift. After that, my friend and I went ahead to brush our teeth and change our clothing. At around 7-7.30am, we were ready to start rowing! But sadly, I had rashes so they didnt let me row :/
After setting off for around and hour or so, I decided to switch with my friend cause I felt really bad and she was having headache as well.. After rowing for awhile, I felt my rashes starting to itch and when I pulled up my sleeves I realised it was getting worse.. And I quickly noted the instructors, they applied calamine and it got slightly better at least I thought it was getting better but it wasnt. They noted the Medical Centre and I was transferred to the safety boat and was waiting for another boat to bring me to the medical centre. Soon the yellow boat came and I was separated from my watchmates and instructors ;(  The boat ride to Camp 1 which was where the Medical Centre was located, it was super windy and I was quite nervous as I didn't know what happened to me so the chilly wind kinda calmed me down and I also took the chance to look at how beautiful Pulau Ubin was. After reaching Camp 1, we immediately went to the Medical Centre. They looked at my rashes and told me that they can't conclude what exactly it was but it was most probably caused by dirt. I quickly cleaned it up by washing it with clean water and they gave me a cream to apply and after applying the cream, they told me to rest for awhile until they receive further notice. I was just lying on the bed and unknowingly, I fell asleep.. At around evening time, Khai came in. I was shocked but at the same time really happy. He even told me what happened when I wasn't with them and they apparently went through 2 thunderstorms. Honestly, I was actually freezing in the medical centre and it seemed like Khai came to my rescue xD I was able to join my watchmates for dinner afterwards and the nurses gave me shower gel to let me clean myself up and get changed into cleaner clothes. After shower, dinner was ready and I was so touched that Ying Xin decided to share with me even though I wasnt around at that moment. She was so so nice and I was just super touched by that. After cleaning up everything, we went somewhere to talk about the day and played some games and Khai told us a scary but not so scary ghost story hehehehehee. As that ended, it was time for us to grab our tents and proceed to another location for our sleep. But as we were going to grab our tents, my rashes started to act up again and by that I meant it started itching and swelling again. And I had to sleep in the Medical centre that night and I felt super bad. Khai also told me if I'm too cold, I could just ask them for another blanket. At first, it felt kinda lonely in the medical centre and my mind was filled with thoughts that made me tear up because i felt extremely bad for Columbus. And slowly, I fell asleep. During around 2-3am, the nurse woke me up to eat a medication to stop the itch for my rashes and I went back to my sleep.

At around 4-5am, I woke up again realising there was another blanket on me and I was wondering who could've put it on me. At around 7+, I was waken up by Khai telling me I could join them for the day's activities and I was overjoyed because I didn't wanna be stuck inside the medical centre as I thought that I'd freeze to death. He then found me a pants to wear and some rubber shoes as my stuffs were all packed. I then joined back my boat and they were all really glad that I came back yay! So we started rowing to our destination again and this time it was back 'home' AKA Camp 2! I was so glad that we were finally going back. After rowing for awhile, rashes came back again and I was honestly getting super irritated cause I was once again being separated from my watchmates. I had to go to my instructors' boat:/ At that time, I was just wearing a normal shirt without sleeves and my instructor was scared that I would get sunburnt so he took off his arm sleeves and let me wear it instead. He was so so niceee. Being in the safety boat wasnt so bad after all.. The instructors tried to crack jokes to keep my mood up and we played many funny games as well. But after awhile, Khai's arms got sunburnt instead ;( At that point I honestly felt really really bad.. I returned the arm sleeves and covered my arms with a towel instead. Khai felt that I would get sunburnt soon as I was sitting in a corner all the time and not moving so he asked me if I mind getting poured in water. I hesitated for awhile but after seeing him do it, I told him yes. And he poured it on me. Holy mama it felt so shiok!!!!! Like I just dipped in the pool or something. It felt so so good. Then I realised after awhile, my friends were all looking at me like as if trying to question me did I just jump in the water or something. It was really very refreshing and Khai poured water on me a few times just so I dont get sunburnt. But at the same time, they were teasing me cause apparently I applied sunblock everywhere except my nose and they said I looked like Rudolf. And they were happily singing the song. And I quickly tried to apply more sunblock. sighpie poor me;( 
At around noon time, rashes started acting up again, and we were pretty close to Camp 1 so they decided to send me back again but the medical centre sent me back again cause I was back for the same reasons.. But it wasnt my fault that I had rashes ;( And after that I was sent back to Camp 2, got my stuff and Khai told me to get a shower first, clean up and just wait for them at the store. After the shower, it felt so damn relaxingggg. After that, I just waited for everyone to be back and they went off to shower after that as well. I had to find Khai afterwards to apply calamine on my rashes. Soon, dinner came and this time I was able to help them out and again I shared my food with Ying Xin again hehehe (: Night came, debrief came and sleep came quickly....

Its the beep, beep, beep again!! YAY!!! It was finally the day to go home and wow I kinda didn't miss home that much actually. Even though I had rashes, I had a great time with them too hahaha.
Usual routine already, wake up, unpitch tent, brush teeth and it was time for our morning workout! We were warned last night that it would be tough and we gotta be prepared. But guess what? We did Zumba. It was so unexpected but it was actually simple workout and they were playing really nice music for us and it turned out to be fun and we did perspire. I actually enjoyed myself very much and I thought I could use this idea when I get back to school. After exercising, breakfast came. It was the last breakfast with Columbus and inside, I felt really really upset. But still, I had a nice breakfast as Khai brought hot water for us and we made milo!! After breakfast and all the cleaning up, we gathered with Khai and he gave us our little booklet and some questions for us to reflect and think about the past 4 days. After we finished writing, we went to a different place and gathered in a circle to share what we've written. I was so glad that it was going the other way which meant that I wouldn't have to speak up first and I felt so relieved. But after awhile, one of my friends couldn't really express her words out, and it went the other way and I knew soon, its gonna be my turn. Soon, my turn came.. I looked at my booklet but I decided not to look at it.. But really over the past 5 days, I've really learnt alot and also went through alot. Like the different skills and values that can be applied in school and CCA. Being with Columbus was definitely a joy, They were really nice, fun and comfortable to be with. [at this point, my tears couldn't hold back itself and I just started to cry and cry] And even though I had rashes, the expedition was still really fun and engaging. But honestly, I felt super bad for each one of them because of my rashes, my boat had one less person and I left them to row on their own.. [sighpie i cried even more badly here omg] I've actually learnt alot of stuff throughout this camp and also I've learned to be more independent and be less afraid of the waters. My highest moments were: Columbus' 'lepak' moments <3 and my lowest moments were: my night in the medical centre definitely.. After that, Khai gave us a ball twine asking us to throw the ball of twine to someone we wanna thank or apologise. During that, I couldn't help but continue tearing up as everyone spoke their thanks and when it was my turn, I wanted to throw that twine to Khai because throughout the camp, he really helped me alot and took such a great care of me and I was beyond thankful.. 
Soon, we had to take our bags and move to another gathering area and wait for the ferry to fetch us back to the Punggol Jetty. Before that, we quickly took group pictures with Khai and many solo pictures with the Columbus gang! Soon, the ferry came! And after around 10 min, we reached Punggol Jetty. After buying our shirts from the souvenirs shop, we were ready to go yay! That day I was happy that my dad could come to fetch me back home as I honestly did not want to take public transport home as I was so so so so tired. But before going home back at Pulau Ubin, I cried alot sighpie... Haizz but after the camp, that night I actually cried again. It was so hard to say goodbye to this bunch of really wonderful people... It felt so wrong to be leaving the 15 of them and I really really did not want to leave them... Without the 15 of you guys, I would never have make it through OBS really and I couldn't be thankful enough for you guys (':

Overall, OBS had really taught me alot of stuffs and I'm really grateful for this experience. Not just the experience, but the wonderful new friends that I got to make and know better, the very very nice instructor that took great care of me when I was having rashes. But leaving Pulau Ubin without a proper goodbye and a thankyou to Khai was probably my worst regret of all.. 
So Khai, thank you so much for taking care of me throughout the camp.. Really sorry that you got sunburnt because of me;( Woke up from your sleep and came back down to the medical centre to check on me and upon seeing me squirmed up like a prawn, you placed another blanket on me. I am honestly really grateful to have you as my instructor. You have brought so much laughter to Columbus though your jokes are pretty lame sometimes but still they never fail to make me smilee.. Thank you once again and I feel so blessed to have a instructor like you, so thank you so so much (':
Oh and Columbus, thank you guys for being the best watchmates that made me feel so loved my everyone and especially my tent buds!! You guys had made such a huge difference to my 2015 life and you guys surely became a great part of it! I love you all and Happy New Year Columbus <3

Lastly to end this off, I know this is like an extraordinary post cause its like so so so so so longggg and like if you really really read it up till here, I'm frankly really touched and I'm so thankful that you would take your time to read this so thank you.
AND BEFORE THE YEAR ENDS, DO READ THE POST ABOVE IF YOU HAVEN'T ABOUT MY 2015!! AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! In the meantime, stay awesome and be happy always !!!!! <3

Hugs & Kisses!